At certain point in our life, we live joy, happiness & carelessness about life’s problems. We are surrounded by people whom we love. We feel security & safety of belonging to such lovely family. We care about nothing; our sole worry & concern is in buying a dolly, eating an ice-cream or playing with friends. We live happily with our childhood innocence. As we grow up, little by little, our worries and simple troubles become more & more serious and complicated till we find ourselves submerged in the darkness of life.
We begin to experience life through moments of hardships. And the hardest and most petrified situation is that in which one finds himself in front of two roads. It’s a very hard choice. Only then can one feel that the nice moments of innocence & happiness of childhood have passed away.
Now life puts him in situations to experience his maturity & responsibility. Either he selects the right road that paves the way to a new life, new kind of happiness, new experiences to create his own or personal existence as he dreams it to be, or he chooses a wrong one that opens the door to a new life full of suffer and afflictions.
Oh my God! How difficult is the situation! I feel terrible nostalgia toward my past moments when I used to be innocent. & no problem bothers my existence; but, it’s the law!
We should adjust ourselves to every life stage.
Now I should face and confront the reality. I should prove to myself that I’m strong and responsible enough to opt for the right choice. I’m in a terrible worry! Dilemma!!
Shall I choose the life that I want? But it’s completely different. It’s an anonymous way.
My heart will be the winner.. But i don’t know if happiness is guaranteed with only the heart!!
Being far, far away.. Far from my home.. Far from my youth memories.. Far from my 23 years-old previous life, far from everything that presents a part of my life now.. So far.. Forever.. No return.. I’ll lose everything except my heart which will be the winner in that case. I wonder if I can do that!!!! It’s difficult I know. It’s so sad when someone is looking & waiting for something and when he finds it, he finds plenty of obstacles in his way to reach it. Will I be able to do that?! Will it be easy for me to build a completely new life and totally forget about my 23 years-old life??
I fear the feeling of regret when there’s no place for it………..